Yay lost 2 lbs from yesterday, though god knows how!  Woke up at 140.8lbs which is beyond repulsive but at least I'm a day ahead of schedule.  Ate some bread with spread this morning and will just have...trapeze training;)) when you're the one being flung about and the girls are tiny . So happy to be losing again and it's getting easier not to purge every day:)  Never thought that would happen!  xx

I am completely obsessed with this song. For realz. So, becoming anorexic isn't as hard as I thought. I'm hungry as hell but I don't feel like eating. I have the hunger pains but not the drive to satisfy... Or maybe what I see everyday in the reflection has finally gotten to me.... I've been drawing like a maniac. Can't post them up here though.... *SAD FACE* Eh, not like anyone reads this anyway

Height: ~5'3 Weight : ~115 Highest Weight: ~120 Lowest Weight: ~95 Goal Weight: 100 is my next goal weight (after that, 95) Favorite Food: fruit, vegetables and cereal. Favorite Drink: water...very skinny. Are You Depressed? : kind of. Do You Self Harm? : yes. i try not to anymore. Ever Tried To Commit Suicide? : no. Ever Been To A Psychologist? : yeah, but only once.

Chapter 13 – “To diss or not to diss”   29 th November, 2008   Dear Diary, Hi; it’s me writing to you again. I really didn’t have a lot to write to you. I’m really sorry about that...really turned into a bitch? I better not be – not only will my reputation be tarnished, but I might get into grave trouble as well. Hold on – let me rigorously wash my filthy mouth with heaps of soap.

Managed 2 out of 3 meals healthy yesterday... then all went a bit wrong... threw up unexpectedly... guess I've really effed up my stomach:(  The feeling of being sick made it really hard to resist b/ping...At 118 I thought I'd never have to see the 120's again, then the 130's, then the 140's.... Aiming to be 120lbs by 5th December.  Would like to be sub-100 for the New Year but not sure can make it:(

I'm going to start everything off with a nice, fresh, clean slate. (: I starting myself off on a new diet. I will know my diet is over as soon as I lose enough weight to be gorgeous and happy. I'm not...to stay away from foods chock full of carbs and things with a lot of starch in them. No artificial additives and no crazy sugars. I'm going to keep in all strictly natural and healthy. (: Wish me luck

Been a few days since my last entry, i haven't really felt like either doing much stuff online or writing an entry really. Been a bad week or so, i just can't seem to get below 156lbs no matter how little...least. At the risk of seeming totally uncool (like i could get any less lol), thought i'd add a song i heard today, one i've always loved with just great lyrics and a great, great voice

dunno. feeling sad lately. my mother made me eat A LOT. She didn't eat, though. yup, she already eat in the afternoon and purged. yay for family.

I wanna stop eating so bad. I'm 5'3'' 105 lbs..and songs like Paperbag and Open fire get stuck  my head and all i wanna do is cry. I look at images of thinspiration and I wanna do it again, but i fail, i always fail :( can anyone help me?

  Drown me, I don't have the right to             Breath.