It gives me wonderful dreams. Last night's was very, very fantastic. Let's just say, in my mind at least, James May is a great kisser :-D. Oh, and he was wearing his Christmas jummy. Unfortunately, my...mood for the rest of the day. Actually, today has been very black dog. And talking of dogs...we're taking Glen to the vets tonight because his breathing's gotten quite bad. I hope he's alright
Here are all the various things I've done so far containingmythical creatures: Art : http://cheshirecatgrin.deviantart.com/art/I-believe-in-89959837 http://cheshirecatgrin.deviantart.com/art/Les... http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2287628/1/History_Of_The_Four_Worlds_Book_I_The_Beginning Masquerade Legacy: War Of The Gods - http://www.fictionpress.com/s/1992678/1/Masquerade_Legacy_War_of_the_Gods
Ahh the Blackdog sits with me.. these past few days.. and makes me wonder if it isn't time to just well.. just.. get rid of the Black Dog the best way I can. So insidious is this creature that it creeps...his chest crushing presence when I don't want it. Making me make decisions I would not normally make. Weary of the Black Dog I am... Song today.. is Robert Cray: The Forcast Calls for Pain
Am struggling this summer (maybe it's the lack of traditional summer weather - or at least blue skies) have lost the bug for this, for flickr, even for meeting mates for a beer - sorry in particular to...visit from the land down under by the vivacious Kat is struggling to pierce this gloomy spell. So that's where I've been, in case you woz wonderin' - demotivated to a standstill by the blackdog
Interestingly enough, I have been reading blogs. Not something I normally do unless I am using avoidance behaviour to do what really needs doing. So because of this behaviour I believe no one else reads...into the Real Light of Day. One never knows.. what change is around the corner. So, that is my obscure and rambling rant that started from a blog on relatonships my mondaymeme. Slàinte Mòhr S/
I think I've managed to screw it up with the first person in a long time to actually start meaning something. And whats worse is I feel like I've lost something I never actually had. Why do I always have...to feelings? Because I just end up proving myself right, like a never-ending self fulfilling prophecy. Just want to rewind to a couple of weeks ago when I thought life couldn't get much better. :
To those whom I probably abandoned last night (RedRage I know I was talking to, not that he has a LiveJournal, and probably Ckret, I didn't take the screensaver off to look if you'd come on or not)- our...do every Sunday because I'm a nervous wreck. If I ever have the chance I'll wring that blackdog's neck and I'll do it gladly. I will be posessed by SUPERHUMAN RAGE-STRENGTH, and I'll wring its neck
You'll be pleased to hear I couldn't think of a piece of music to tie in with this thought, but I wondered if any other girls have gone through the emotional maelstrom I've been through for the past decade...ever come off it. I'll explain a little about some of the horrors I experienced, maybe, when I get back to posting my story, but for now I just wondered if anyone else had been 'licked' by this dog
Hmm, it's that time of year when I have to fight to live in the world. I can feel myself gradually sinking, after rising from March until about 4 weeks ago... the old Black Dog is nipping at my heels....it is the whole12 months, this year I had about 3 months respite- a huge amount; How long will I be wishing for this to be over and life seeming worthwhile again? at least I still live in hope.
