It's all comming crashing home now. Two weeks. A little over two weeks and I'll be gone from Idaho for good. But that's not what I'm thinking about. True to my own nature, I'm not excited or worried or...back, even me, a little bit, I guess, but I'll give it my best shot. It is the most beautiful land I've ever seen, and the only one I've ever felt like I could stand to spend the rest of my life in

What if it just didn’t matter? What if no one really cared? What if the first thing someone thought when they saw you wasn’t “male” or “female”, but “person”? That’s what I wish. It seems silly that...biased way myself. This sort of internal strife bubbles over into all sorts of ransom acts of insanity, and I have no idea what I must do to make peace with it. With myself. With gender. Any thoughts?

I made the mistake of looking ahead. I try to stay concentrated on the here and now (in a manner of speaking, anyway) and not worry too much about my own future because, well, I’m a huge worrywart. If...strict instructions not to worry needlessly about things that don’t need to be worried about. At least at the moment. Oh, hey, there’s my bible. That always helps me find some sort of semi-even keel

Excerpt(s) from Jari's Backlogged Diary.... Part I: The Reign of Fire      Nearly a year ago now, last summer, there was a flood in Alaska. Most of the Mat-Su Valley was submerged, a stretch of... Apparently I am one of those lucky(?) souls that has a natural immunity to the Avian Plague. Stupid random immune system. Buuuuuut my AFF t-shirt came today, so I'm okay with it all!

There is a girl--woman, rather; weird as it feels, I have no right to keep calling my cohorts immature--there is a female I feel split about. It's as if there are two of me whenever I am around her. One...much I fight it, sometimes it leaps unexpectedly into control of my entire being. I am deeply ashamed of this...and it's a credit to the woman in question that she puts up with me, this side included

One hour until the big test. I don't know my lines. I need to study/memorize QUICKLY. So what am I doing? Writing this. *innocent grin* I just want you all to know that I love you, and care for you deeply, and, umm...goodbye. I want my headstone to read "The cougar you are visiting is no longer in service. Please try back later."

Due to newly enacted legislation in the United States broadening the daylight savings period yet again, (most) the US, myself included, will be experiencing a one hour planned temporal shift. Thus,...lives in Universal Time, though the whole world should go to it and drop time zones and daylight savings entirely.... If today were tomorrow, then it'd be the next day today. Wait...I think? o.0

 Once again, Jari returns to the open road in idle search of a career. I accomplished what I set out to accomplish this year and achieved the personal edification goals I set for myself. While the medical...for me, if circumstances change inside two years, I'll still be eligible for the NREMT certification, provided I take and pass the aforementioned $150 test(s). So I’m not abandoning EMT-B completely.

It's that time again, kids! The time that Jari sits down and thinks out his Educational career with a little help from the JEOC. Any input, advice, ideas, or whatever would be very greatly appreciated...to offer the poor lost cougar? I'll make my own decisions in the end, as always, but any comments would be greatly appreciated! In other news, I failed my big exam last night. I need to study harder. :(

WARNING: THIS ENTRY HAS NO BASIS IN SCIENTIFIC FACT It's still true that I have a massive test tomorrow, and I need to be studying. It's also still true that my Certification depends on an even more...out for gravity. In the end, gravity (nearly) always wins. In unrelated news based on my recent lj-tagging adventure, it appears that my long term memory is only good for about two and a half years.