Update on the C front: He emailed me. Apologizing for what happened. Saying that he doesn't remember the details. And that he's happy that what he thought happened really didn't. ...I'm partially happy...tell the truth to due to the obvious terrible repercussions. Kill me, perhaps? Whatever, it's kind of stopped mattering to me as much since this whole thing happened three days ago. Love always
Today at school I saw Zach. At first I ignored him and pretended that I hadn't seen him (I'm not sure if he had seen my but w/e) and sat not 20ft away from him knitting listening to my iPod. No real reason...if that makes sense... probably makes me sound fickle... even if it feels anything but that. Fuck fickle... it's been 5 years... I think I can safely say this doesn't make my emotions "fickle" lmao
I have been hearing about this celebration called "Halloween", and I must confess, I do not understand it. What is its point? And what is this about "costumes"?
Today I had one of those days when you just feel deflated all the time. Couldn't sum up the energy to speak German, much less to try and teach English. And I need to find something to do in the staffroom... I am not looking forward to my visit to the Rathaus tomorrow to try and anmeld properly. Despite this, I've been Thinking. This isn't a good thing, and warrants an extra blog post. Be afraid
I do not understand my costume. It is just another pretty dress like all my others. Reminds me of a wedding dress . Oh well, Admiral, I will gladly wear it!
Sometimes I think certain people in my life are pretty right, even if I can't see it at the time. I've heard it so many times before now, "don't let men get to you, all you need is your friends, don't...anymore. Everything I've had has been downright wrong, everything has stalled badly. So what am I supposed to think? Maybe I should just become a spinster with 30 cats. Simpler life maybe :P
Alpha Phi Omega's conclave was this weekend at Quinippiac. It was a lot of fun. The leads program in the morning was a little boring, because the power was out and we couldn't see the power point, but...will be do. Ah well, Here's to hoping. And here's to Halloween.... I hope its fun! Ugh... and I've gotta pay Hartford 9,000 dollars so I can register for class..... I feel so behind. So stuck
one of those mornings when absolutely nothing feels real? where you stub your toe really hard on door frame and you know it should hurt, but it doesn't? or when your friends steaming hot coffee... Oh and there it goes. well I may not be able to get the whole thing off of italic, but I will live. But what I might not live through is this other conversation. I have to get to get to class.
Goku, your assistance upon my arrival to this place has been most invaluable. For that, I owe you. That instant- transmission of yours is quite impressive. I am curious, though, about many things in...any world, I will be returned to the Gundam Fight. As he is now, Domon will not survive without my aid. The Devil Gundam must not be allowed to survive. I must leave here as soon as I possibly can
