I JUST WATCHED THE TRAILER FOR HALFBLOOD PRINCE AND OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, YOU GUYS (yes, deliberate Legally Blonde The Musical reference) IT LOOKS SO FREAKING GOOD - IT'S GOING TO BE SO EPIC, AND SO FREAKING...me... I was about to call James and wake him up and make him come save me, but luckily some guy came to my rescue.  He was nice, and it took a while, but he changed my tire and I am forever grateful.  

I'm going to get him back.  I'm going to make it work.  I know it's probably still only temporary, and I know he's probably not worth my time, but I am still in love with him and I refuse to let him go...the way I had hoped.  But that's a new rule, too - don't expect anything.  Just be happy to love him, and realize that there's a possibility that it's still temporary.   I just want some more time

James just broke up with me. I've honestly never felt like this before.  I've never loved anyone the way I love him, and now it's over.  I'm apparently too much for him to handle.... I don't know. God I'm going to miss him.  Everything about him.  Jesus.  This is so hard. I don't know what to do. Sidebar: Erin Brophy is amazing.

I miss James.  I didn't get to talk to him last night because I was asleep already when he called.  I know it's only been a day, but yesterday happened to be a pretty bad day... I dunno.  And I'm kind...know.  I have my internet friends, but since they're not around in person, it seems less... I don't know.  But my internet friends do help a great deal.  More than anyone else in my real life.  ^^; 

So I just spent the last hour trying to watch the 6th episode of How I Met Your Mother, but instead, I got yelled at for pretty much everything that's ever happened, starting with two CDs that got messed...stuck in this house, broke and worthless and going nowhere?  Does she really think I'm enjoying it? Sometimes I really honestly feel like just ending it all... but  I don't even know how to do that

I finished Breaking Dawn ,  and even though it was a complete waste of time, I'm glad I read it because it actually did clear up quite a few things about the series.  It was a nice ending, I guess.  Whatevs...find a job that doesn't suck my soul out and kill me, and keep it?  Why is that impossible? Sorry, friendslist.  I don't know what's wrong with me.  But thanks for listening, those of you who do. 

I'm on chapter 15 of Breaking Dawn , and it's pretty awful.  Someone sent it to me online though, so at least I didn't waste money on it.  -_-  Bah. Bridget and I had a giant fightything this morning...^_^ My mom's home from Charlotte/Colorado now.  >_>  Lamesauce, but at least we'll have food. I need sleep like whoa... I has things to do today.  -_-  I'm tired. This entry was basically pointless.

 I fail a lot.  Sleep < researching Harry Potter for four hours. I don't know what to do anymore. I guess I'll go watch Hi-5, then sleep until James calls me.  I don't know. /fail

Today was pretty fun... Book Club and mall and games and magic tricks and beach and fun and Denny's!  Sly played, and I like him a lot.  I also enjoyed Linda, who is a friend of Karen's, and now my best...Need to find a new job, hopefully closer to my house.  Stupid gas prices, being astronomical. Need to stop being crazy, but good luck with that one.  Bah. I miss David Cook. I'm dissatisfied with life.

 Apparently Kelsey and Jim are going to be at my party... I just talked to Jane, and she said Kelsey was there now, so I guess they're coming.  I guess that means I have to make them gift bags and CDs...presents, and I get lame presents in return.  Well.  Not everyone - Karen got me my orange KangaROOs last year, and orange high heels this year.  :D  They're AMAZING.  And James does good presents.