All crammed into one brain and no where to go. Forget talking about sharing a single body, which is presently falling apart, but that's a whole other part of this frustration. There's no room to...be over, have it all stay in the past. So we could just get on with life. Even more to morn M without having to deal with our own fucked up head trips. I'm just frustrated and having a whine. Ravi

... here. When I feel myself getting too crazy-happy, I take deep breaths and tell myself the facts, how things actually are, what I know to be true, what is. It's been working, but I'm still apprehensive for a crash. If I'm up right now, I'll only realize it 'til later. Dissociation, mania, depression: they are all ways of me getting out of here. But I worked hard to get here and I want to stay.

...abuse http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/child-abuse/DS01099 http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/domestic-violence/WO00044 http://www.raperesponseservices.org/ http://www.sprucerun.net/ Dissociation http://www.nmha.org/index.cfm?objectId=C7DF8D4E-1372-4D20-C86C22067E838DF0 http://www.isst-d.org/education/faq-dissociation.htm Depression http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/depression/DS00175...

Breaking the Addiction of Dissociation - Joanne's 2008 Conference Presentation http://members.aol.com/smartnews/jo_08.htm   excerpt : Researching the term "dissociation" I found this definition by Dr. Bennett Braun: "the separation of an idea or thought process from the main stream of consciousness" (Braun, 1988). Everybody uses dissociation. People use it to screen out unnecessary stimuli. With...

...for officers once we have a larger membership. Our Mission Statement is: To further dialogue, knowledge, research, and training on the etiology, evaluation, and effective treatment of trauma and dissociation in clients reporting histories of ritual abuse or mind control. Our Scope is: To further these goals within the International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation (ISSTD) and to...

You know, it's been a while since I actually contemplated suicide for real. Well, last night was one of those days. Normally, yes, cutting is fine and that's as far as my self-destructive streak goes.... I'm just living in it. I don't even know if that makes any sense. I want to cut to release all of my worries, I want to cut to feel beautiful, I want to cut to regain my body. I simply want to cut

i keep processing what happened and thinking, "ok, now i've come to a conclusion, now i can let this rest." but it keeps not working. and i think it comes down to: you shouldn't have liked me. i can...of myself just to tell you to stop - and by then it's far too late. i don't think you noticed. i wanted to throw up. i was so far out of my own reach. i can't figure out why you were even interested

i dont really know what to write. things seem so fucking wrong. and i dont know why. everything seems to be falling apart around me. i cant explain it. i've just come back from holiday, which in most ways... to know that part of my head knew there was one, maybe even brought it with me and ye. shit, im losing it. ima gonna shut the hell up now. this is quite long and garbled and boring and ye. xx

I am reminded again and again of how impossible it seems to people in the mainstream of life, that a normal, healthy person can have her entire inner and outer reality, functioning personality, and...about it instead of berating myself for not doing more, or hearing the voice of my abuser/accuser/critic in my head, making me feel like nothing I could do would be good enough or win approval.

...and myself. It seemed an ordinary day, and I was experiencing the normal amount of anxiety I generally had going to my doc to discuss the events which triggered my post traumatic stress disorder and dissociation. I didn't want to dredge up the past, but I did want to get on with my future, and a buried past has a way of throwing mud on even the best of days. Suddenly, the television screen began...