...me. But one thing he asked in particular, it's been killing me on the inside for awhile. "What are you doing with your fucking life?" I know what you're thinking, "Leave my computer screen, emo kid." Well, that's what people would think if anyone read this. But it's truly been bothering me. Yeah, I'm still young and college is still a good way away. But for real, I'm already starting to fuck...
...here at home and doing nothing during the weekend... if i just go to work and come home... i get srsly depressed, like i'm only existing, not living. I don't feel free... ugh. fuck i hate feeling emo. D < I DO NOT LIKE BEING OR FEELING EMO DAMMIT, BRAIN WTF IS WITH ALL THIS EMO DEPRESSION AND STOMACH-SICK FEELING!?!?!!! It's fucktarded. They're not gonna fire me at work, they like me, they NEED...
Well, homecoming was miserable. Not even going to talk about it because I want to forget it ever happened. What a mistake that was. Finny just said something to me now; about how most of his decisions...good happen? Why do I always have to barely make it through the day? So, I'm just going to watch Wedding Crashers, because it's my favorite movie and it'll make me feel better. Hopefully.
... Today was a really good day, I promise...But when I finally got home and things started to settle in... I died a little on the inside... Maybe I'm being over dramatic....Or maybe everything's blowing up in my face again. Is it considered 'emo' to post shit like this in live journal? At this point...I don't care.... I just...Wish he was here to hold me and keep me from falling apart...
...into the tire, so I can't just drive it home and get it fixed when i get home. But its OK because I was already up, because my sister's dog was CHASING HIS TAIL ON TOP OF ME. The same dog that chewed through my laptop cable and ate my engagement ring. I "love" that dog. WTF. I have to go to work on Sunday. I need monies to pay billz. I have NO IDEA when I'll be able to get home I AM EMO NOW.
i just wanted to say how much i'm going to miss all of you. you mean the world to me. i cannot imagine life without you guys. really. you've made me into a better person, given me joys that i'm so grateful...about anything else. it's been comfortable. no matter how much i say, it still won't be enough. thanks for everything (= i owe alot to each one of you. so dear 6.03 (= it's been a blast. thank you
moi... siis tosi pelottavaa: pakilan mafia ympäröi meitä! ja semmottii. outoi äänii.. mutta asiahan oli etttä loma alkoi tänään! jännä juttu. totaa niiin tänää oltiin nuuran kaa hulluil päivil häröilemäs ja ostettii karkkii! njam. ja bussimatka
Sometimes you want to bitch about something but there are things you don't do in public. I've got to move out before, one of those days, I will beat my mom up. I even get dreams like that... Oh, I do... My mother is a different story. Sometimes she can be great, mostly she is annoying. But there are times I really can't stand her. Sorry, no comments, no questions, just needed to get it out...
*cries* I'm trying to make a new layout and its supposed to look like this but it doesnt! and i cant for the live of me figger out whats wrong and why i have all these extra things in it like the circles...now it looked like this when i first posted this entry XD ETA2: yes i know the header image isnt anything special (although Jensen and that scene are) but i had like 5 minutes to wip something up
