...and buy a hat I don't need or I might just lie down on the floor and have a nap - neither of which is productive right now - and I have no way of knowing which I'm going to do. In fact, I'll probably just end up sitting doing nothing at the computer for a while as I try to figure out what I'm going to do. All I know is I'm certainly not going to be able to focus on anything useful. FAILURE BOAT.

My photobucket got maxed out, in case you hadn't noticed (and don't follow my safetytardis   account). Should be fixed in a couple weeks. :/ Sorry.

I love how the thread with Lina and Bard getting revenge on Juudai totally never got finished, and it actually wasn't my fault this time. And at this point, unless I bug the muns about it, it probably...attempt at activity wasted. And a poetry contest with memory rewards... too bad I am wonderfully, amazingly untalented at poetry. Another potential memory gain I'm going to miss out on, again . >

So, at first I wanted to take a moment to redicule myself for not sticking to my plans yet again! I am so anal about cleaning on the weekends and following through with what ever goals I have made for... I really want to do them. I don't know. This is just me getting down on myself. Also, I have to reschedule therapy this week due to meetings at work. Well, enough of the Monday morning self loathing

 My biggest fear in life is failure .  I know this doesn't make me deep or anything, but instead of #1 public speaking and #2 death (and #3 Pamela Anderson without makeup), I fear failure most.  I hate taking risks. I HATE when things are a long shot. I HATE rejection.  I could have applied to Northwestern, but I really couldn't bear the possibility of a rejection letter. I could have auditioned...