...together for the sake of the children will only make people resentful. But, staying together for sanity's sake, that could be resentful too I'm sure. I figured that I needed to try to express my feelings some how. I don't want my soon to be ex-husband to know all this because I don't want to ruin his chances at happiness. I just wish I could be just as happy but I doubt I will be. If I break...
Hello boys and girls. Do you want to know something? Anthony will go buy pads for me next Thursday. ;) + I don't make complete entries anymore. As in I don't write/type in paragraphs. I'm too lazy. Sorry...playing now. + Fitness, English, Vocals, Fitness, English. > My day. + I finished my dailies for Fitness. :D + English is the boringest shizz in the world. (n) + A date with Anthony after school.
For the series: "Nyctea is totally an M"... We present you her current playlist: .Murasaki (赤西仁) .Endless Road (Ｋｉｓ－Ｍｙ－Ｆｔ２) .care (赤西仁) .SMILE (Ｋｉｓ－Ｍｙ－Ｆｔ２) .Lovin' u (ＫＡＴ－ＴＵＮ) .Hesitate (赤西仁) .Crazy Love...somebody (亀梨和也) .LOVE (ＫＡＴ－ＴＵＮ) .Your Side (ＫＡＴ－ＴＵＮ) .Kizuna (亀梨和也) .Bokura no Machi de (ＫＡＴ－ＴＵＮ) .I LIKE IT (ＫＡＴ－ＴＵＮ) .Rush of Light (ＫＡＴ－ＴＵＮ) .PRECIOUS ONE (ＫＡＴ－ＴＵＮ) ... Don't say anything... ..
I have always felt that I was an empathetic person, sometimes getting lost in my head wondering how life chooses its fates; I think being a mother makes it 1000 times stronger. Through the channels... or in my prayers- but in reality; that does nothing. She is still struggling for her life, and all I can do is cry for her, and hope that one day, there is no more pain. maybe Ill sing her a lullaby
... So, I'm sitting here staring at things again. I will flippin' conquer this room, it can't get the best of me! YOU HEAR THAT ROOM!? I WILL BEAT YOU!! Later... I'm busy now... *shifty eyes* So... I...have an hour and a half to kill before going to eat... I have so much I need to get done... but first I think I might lay down for a spell... Yes, that seems like a very good plan indeed. *nods
(Ode to winter) "I spin, spin and spin - whirling around, dancing with the snowflakes. I feel their cold, light softness on my face, I know they're turning my fur from black to grey. As I run around... rejuvenated, and as I've awoken from a restless sleep too long. Something deep inside of me is so truly happy, it's returned. I don't know if I could live too many years without it. //O - winterwolf
Took a walk around 6 PM yesterday. It had already been dark for perhaps an hour, but I like it that way. It was damn cold too. Almost freezing. I took a long walk, looking at the stars when there were...these: I made them in sixth grade. I still think they're great. Now I'm gonna watch Criminal Minds. On Jeremy's room because my box is downstairs cos I usually never watch TV. Uhm, bye.
How up and down it goes again. It leaves its marks on me. Physically & emotionally. And I cannot understand why. Don't want to eat, as a punishment. Tho' I kinda did that earlier as well. I deserve this... Pff. Feel like crying, but too many people here. Don't know what to do anymore tho'. Really really feel like giving up, but I know I shouldn't, but pff. Guess I cannot explain that. Not that it matters
When you come to think of it, all of us have an invisible power within ourselves that can move mountains. It's funny how words can change so many things. I'm as sick a dog. My nose is running a marathon...my command of english is getting worse tomorrow have to wake up at 5.30am leh cannot tahan my back very pain why its not a girl problem but i think im falling really sick i need sleep good night
