Need... conversation. GAH! _________ Think i'll spend tonight reading in "When True Night Falls". _________ Gonna cook hamburgers for supper. Snacking on Chex Mix at the moment. _________ I need...until it gives him a brain tumor* Stupid life. Stupid reality. Stupid universe. __________ I'm wearing an orange shirt and brown pants. And i have a light blue plastic ice-water cup.

WHY ISN'T THERE ANYONE OUT THERE LIKE ME? (don't worry, it's not that bad, i just needed to yell)

What I don't understand is this: why is it when I am actually prepared for something, say something like oh, I don't know, halloween for example. Why is it when I am prepared for weeks in advance, do...buying a costume the day before. I just want to know why I cannot be rewarded for NOT procrastinating for once? Sometimes, or in my case, most of the time, it just doesn't pay to not procrastinate! Ha!

Today sucks, majorly. I've been looking forward to today, all month long. There was supposed to be an event, a martial arts, self defense, tae bao type thing going on in the Mount Laurel campus lounge...said, yeah, it's here, but nothing. GRAH!!! Worst of all  (In my opinion) I'm going to be out of focus for my Amistad test becaue I haven't eaten since 9? grrr... So pissed off, this just isn't my week

I don't know why exactly, but lately I've been feeling like all I am to some people is someone to fill a void that someone else left, only to be replaced by a more permanent someone when the opportunity...things that people won't even care about. And I've recently decided to start watching the entire Dragon Ball Z series all over again, from start to finish (yay veoh). Should be interesting. The Rhin

Bored, bored, bored...Boredboredboredbored. *whines pitifully* Also, the bosslady left early Mon w/ sickness, was out Tuesday, left early today.  Bossman left early Tuesday to head for Europe, out the...universe I have not already read.  Blah.  And my own is giving me a headache. In a final bit of whining, today is one of those days when I hate being female.  Because, obviously the universe hates me

knnbccb. An hour more, but am not counting down, cos my freaking CommDI collage is not freaking done. So I'm literally lagging like shit. Fuck. knnbccb. Yes, I am so annoyed, so pissed, so exhausted, so... even if my lecturer is a nice person. knnbccb. ` I swear after Chicken bryani for dinner, I feel pregnant. Remind again, never to have such a feeling dinner especially when it ain't early. knnbccb

Woke up at 7 today and went to school and met Lee in front of the elevator... :D We went up together, but they told us that the X-Ray is in the Honkou (other Shibuya school building), so we had to leave...recovered a bit more. 124. :D Am asking myself if I should get money tomorrow then or wait until Saturday when I wanted to go to Shinjuku anyway and treat me with a black beret... |D *hohohohoho*

This journal used to be really pretentious! Who the fuck did I think I was? That is what you get when you read too much and think too little and talk too little. I am pretty sure that spending time with...running around in my brain space like a chicken with its head cut off. Okay. I do not think anybody will actually read all this but if you do then thank you and I appreciate it and let me know!

I finally got a letter back from Kaiser Permanente, only to say they have denied me insurance because of my preexisting condition (which really doesn't cause me much trouble, so wouldn't hurt the insurance... and that's even with it being a wav file. If I'm successful, then I will post it here. If not, well that will kinda suck. I don't know if it's possible to upload a video on here from my computer. :