I don't know why I let it bother me so much. It's not a big issue with anyone else, but to me it's something I have the hardest time accepting. I'm such a hypocrite. I get pissed off at people who conform...hate it. But at the same time I don't. I like who I am... I just get frustrated. I hate where I am. I no longer want to be alone, yet I have no idea how to not be alone. I don't know what I want
Basically, I'm trying to write something right now, but I can't write my chaptered because I feel like I suck right now (not think I do, feel like) soooo I need to get my creativity going again somehow...do with it what I will. Help a girl out? If you feel so inclined, that is. In the mood for Gabe/William but whatever you want. I just need... something. This is like trying to swim through honey
Tonight is hard. I don't know why. Probably the big family dinner where I don't actually belong. As much as they try, as desperate as I am... I just couldn't feel it. I haven't been this upset in ages...means I have to write whatever else it's gonna be like, yesterday. Crap. Oh well, at least I'm in a Ryan-y mood, even if it's probably gonna change by tomorrow. Right. Rambling. I stop nao. Bai
Everything seems to be fucked up, yet running smoothly at the same time. My schooling is going awesome, yet not. I'm good with turning in the packets. Just Algebra is taking a fucking long time. I planned on having unit 20 (the final) by now, but I only have unit 17. (I'll be getting unit 18 tomorrow.) So I have to now plan another two or three weeks until unit 20. fuck. The bankruptcy is going...
I was talking to this girl for about two weeks then she just stopped talking to me all together. I know i did nothing wrong, so why did she do this.....I dont know? And right now i realy could care less if i ever see or talk to her again. On another note.... I got really fucked up last week. But I have been sober for the last three days. But who knows what the day will bring....
...of my bondage furniture here, find a roommate, locate a bracelet...why not this? If its not cool, please remove. So my ex was teaching me to drive. Well, he was riding shot gun and telling me when I fucked up. We broke up a week ago and my dad took over the job, but he's scary as fuck. He was supposed to ride with me today to school, pick me up from school, ride with me to work and pick me up from...
Recently finished the painting for Sigurd The Dragon Slayer. The author wasn't that happy with it, so I made some adjustments, spent more time trying to get a decent photograph and have been in touch with...-- £2,500 for an image. Fuck-stick! Have decided not to take on any more commissions until I have passed my motorbike test and been on holiday. I'm done! Hope to move house sometime this year too
I am so fucked! My stupid ass sister is coming over and she and my brother-in-law might spend the night. Get this, their electricity got shut off but yet they could still afford to go to the fair. I know they went to fair because I seen them. I didn't talk to them though. Those assholes! They only think about themselves. I hate my fucking, stupid, psycho sister!
