Just something I wanted to do to let off some steam... XDDD What if your ex says... Why did you let me go? (Not that I ever did let one go... =| ) Because you're a pathetic excuse of a human and... Last thing you drank: Juice. Last person that broke your heart: ...Andy... AJKSFHJKSDHFJKSDHFSDKFJLSDJFLDSJLGJDF arghhhhhhhhhhhh Last time you were really honestly happy? This evening...

Just random babbles in this entry... I'm having the feeling I'd really would adore to have a girlfriend rather than a boyfriend at the moment. Blah. I just get an odd feeling around some guys now....like Bella . Well, on the Twilight topic, I would rather have Jacob anyway. *drool* Freakin' awesome guy... Bwahaha... X3 ANYWAY. Yes. > < Yeah... I think having a girlfriend would be nice...

He's the one that offered his heart up first to me I'm the one that shot it down Then I wanted it Not once, several times It was his turn to shoot me down Hard. I've learned not to fall in love too...tears You suggested she go along I think you saw in my eyes I didn't want her to go I'm sorry. But I want to be able to say that I hate you. Ex's can't be best friends without one being stabbed inside.

Not really a lot to say so no LJ-cut this time! Scratch that... I ramble on too much... I'm feeling really happy I'm not thinking of Andy so often. I suppose a broken heart can be healed slowly...back. (At least to go to the playground again.) >=| Then I could visit Kelly as well sometimes (hopefully I wouldn't disturb her). I've always wanted a doggy... Blah... I'm gonna go draw now.

-insert clever thing here- Today wasn't extremely epic, but it was still interesting. First period we had a motivational speaker talking about addictions. Maybe I'm addicted to the Internet. Well...in French class. I was really on the ball today. It seemed like there wasn't a lot of work. I finished my stuff pretty quickly. X3 Bwahahaha. I have obtained drum-stick cheese cake right now.

OM NOM NOM. ...Because Tane ate it all! 8DDD I did a really good job of waking up this morning. I was able to get up on my alarm. YAY. X3 This morning I was feeling really happy. Kylie finished drawing and colour a Neuro picture for me. GOSH IT'S AMAZING.

So, in an effort to move forward with getting her out of my life, I've been going through everything trying to seperate her's and mine. Tonight's item of choice, pictures. Rather difficult to pretend...or no one else mattered. Every image taking me back to the very moment, the very same feeling, the memory of surroundings when the flash went off. It was like Ground Hogs Day, with a lot of pain

im DONE . D.O.N.E. done.  im tired of giving my heart to the same person, when he just breaks it over and over. and better yet he who happens to be one of my best friends, likes one of my other best...me slowly oh too late asshole! How does it feel when tears freeze, When you cry? The blood in your veins is twenty below. i dont even feel liek writing anymore....

W ho would have thought a pick-up truck, some car parts, and a $10 an hour job would slap me out of a 7 month coma. 2 months ago if you had told me something so simple would be a part of a life changing...not angry with her, i don't hate her i hope she finds her happiness, she was my first love, she showed me that i can love, and i'm rather good at it, and knowing the outcome i'd do it all again...

Have you ever had someone on your mind that JUST WON'T GO AWAY? How Exactly do you make certain trains of thought stop? I have tried all the tricks....you know-keeping busy etc. C'mon I even bought...it terribly. It's gone and it can't come back. I'm trying to get over it, I really am. I'm not new to heartbreak, but day after day, no matter how hard I try not to, I'm wondering again.