Once again, I got hurt. And by who? By the bastard who I thought would be different from my mother. Guess I was wrong. And I thought, truly and honestly, that he wouldn't do the same thing my mother did...I just got beat down again. And I don't want to continue on like this. I can't. It's too much. I thought I could control how things are but I can't. I'm alone. And it hurt.   Fuck I suck so much.

I finally moved everything from my car up to my dorm room.. I should offer to help others bring boxes up when I see them - its a better workout than I would have imagined.. Looking at all the stuff I brought...area.. Honestly, I've never lived in one place for a long time due to my father moving around with the family business.. I look forward to a great time here and I hope people will come to accept me.

Ken Starr -- and the Prop 8 Legal Defense Fund -- filed legal briefs defending the constitutionality of Prop 8 and attempting to forcibly divorce 18,000 same-sex couples that were married in California...proceeding. After you watch the video, please join me and over 150,000 people who have signed a letter to the state Supreme Court, asking them to invalidate Prop 8 and reject Starr's case. Thanks

I would definitely say Valentine's day is not my favorite holiday. It's not that I think it's a bad thing, but when you don't have someone, it only reminds you of everything you have lost or wish was yours...a feeling I might be lacking this weekend. So the best thing I can do right now is tell my friends about this and maybe it will brighten their day as well. Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

Why does pain always have to find its way into my life? Whether it is physical or emotional matters not. It always seems to be there. And you know I wish that there would come a time in my life without...and dreams. Because pain is going to always hurt, but at least it humbles us and reminds us that we are alive. In the end there is a bright side to everything, even pain, we just have to find it

I'm okay... I think I've worried people enough, so I was able to borrow one of the nurses' laptops to post a message here to tell you all not to worry anymore. I don't really want to talk about what...that, it's just some cuts and bruises. Nothing is broken, so I'll probably be let out at the end of the week. I really scared my parents, and my brothers... I bet I scared all of you too... sorry..

So crazy at it sounds, my friend told me he was learning how to play this on guitar last night so I looked up the lyrics and song on YouTube. It was the first time I had actually heard Anberlin's music... Don't soon forget (Between salvation and love, don't drop your arms) You're so brilliant (I'll guard your heart) Grace marked your heart (With quiet words I'll lead you in and out of the dark

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Even if my poetry and writings were original and creative enough to get published, I don't think I could. I admire her courage to put her life and vulnerabilities out there for everyone to see. Her... In heartbreaking detail and poetic outpourings, Renee Yohe (the inspiration behind the non-profit movement, To Write Love On Her Arms) chronicles her journey from self destruction to new life.

Well, last night I bent down to reach for something and BAMMMMMM! I felt my back spasm in the lower back and I have been walking like an 80 year old ever since. I layed down and watched Queer As Folk...and it kinda tasted good but still no help. Watched Magnolia before uploading some photos and posting this entry. I am off to have a snack and lay down for the night. HUGZ and stay warm in this weather