brandon, i dont care what anyone, even you, has to say to this. it's the truth. you dont have to believe it. you can believe that im a bad person, and i ruin everybodies lives. i know you dont think... and most people dont really care. i just want you to know that im really sorry. its scary, and i wish you would forgive me. im sorry that im a fucked up bitch. but i love you. you mean so much to me.