...money have a food stamp. But there's a fee-help which I do believe comes with interest, so that's... great. Anywho, one of my old teachers is the head of the school so I'm a shoe in *snort* Don't get cocky Tash! --- And today I just hung out with the boyfriend, did some pre-selection kit and watched Starship Troopers. And oh I'm finally going for my learners driver license. I'm a very lazy 21.
THE DAILY life of a student is one big adventure. Everyday, a student has to compulsively get out of bed in the unholy hours of early morning to prepare himself for his daylong journey at school...himself to come to school every required day of his life and cling hopelessly to the single idea that each of those school days he endures is needed his every step towards the bright FUTURE!
I'm always going to be lazy. I'm stressing my balls off at the moment due to this current project and I had a brief memory of the feelings I felt the night before I had to publish a book report in Year 7. It was such a strong downward spiral. I can't do it. There's no time. I don't understand it. I can't do it because theres no time in which to understand it. I have no time to do it, i don't understand...
I have been giving myself excuses and haven't been updating this. I will make it a point to journal every day of the happenings to the 2 boys. *wink* Many things happened for the past month that threw me off balance a whole lot. I am the world's stoopidest person. sigh.
It's pretty sad that I log into Livejournal frequently and now it says "Four weeks since you last posted" That's quite a long time. I think I even started to write a post about how I hadn't really been...lot harder than expected. It's hard to get out of my shell and just take pictures, of whatever, without making excuses. Still working on that, and getting organized this year so we'll see how it goes
I just want to be lazy and talk on myspace and watch a good movie and eat something sweet and finish reading my book and maybe write something amazing and finish my life list and make a drawing and not have to think about school tomorrow.
I decided to call in sick to work today. And it's legit. I really am sick with a cold. It's not that bad, but I have drill next weekend so I wanted to take an extra day off this one. Not that I'm doing...full meal, but I don't have an appetite. i should go to State Farm and pay my car insurance bill, but I'm not going to. So many things to be doing, and I just refuse. It's just one of those days.
I was absent on the last two weeks and under this time I didn't learn anything. And now in the autumn break I wanted to watch the 1 Littre of Tears dorama and read some mangas. But I have many homework... english, japanese...... >. < . But I'm not whimpering because It was my fault (~.~). BUT my animefan community sent me a "Be better soon!" card, and everybody sign it (>. . .
There's stuff I should be doing, but I don't want to. I spent an hour working, and now I just want to sit on the couch and watch tv and snuggle with my cat. I have something that's making me very excited and happy, and also a little scared, but I can't talk about it yet. Not until the offical paperwork is signed, sealed, and delivered. No, I haven't bought a house.
