... It's not my money. Can't say I didn't try. I think this may either be because my dad is still actually concerned about me and wants to make sure the thing's not gonna break on me, or else my mother just wants another "point" to her side for getting me a ~brand new Mac~ which is ~so expensive.~ ¬¬ Fucking hell. Isn't it kinda pointless to do something for somebody else that they didn't even...

My mother's full maiden name is Ella Rebecca Alpers. Her birth date and place of birth was 9 April 1884 on the Alpers farm two and a half miles east of Clatonia, Gage County, NE . Her parents had bought when they married. It is still owned by an Alpers family member. When her parents sold the farm, her brother Henry bought it. After his and his wife's deaths, their daughters Esther and Irene bought...

English midterm paper is in the final stages of polish. I wrote my conclusion at lunch -- that's the easiest part of the whole thing. I gave the whole paper one solid edit, and even read it allowed to...home tonight to grab a cheap witch hat to wear to work with one of my goth dresses, stripey socks, and curly-toed shoes since we're having a thing here for the kids. That's about it, though. Trac

...know, into an adult. For a while I felt like I had given up so many of my dreams by settling down in this quiet countryside town. I also felt like I had given up some of my independence, because my mother gave me this house and I am in this position of wanting to live in my house the way I want and at the same time trying to step on eggshells around my mother to please her as well. I'm seeing me...

As I've posted before, I rarely see or talk to my mom.  I sent an email to all my family (including her) with the information about how we are all doing that I posted earlier.  This is what she sent back...to have friends and family and therapy, if necessary.   At least for me.    Hope you get a deer!" Don't really have anything else to say - just wanted this recorded in my journal.      

So...Mother was minding her own business doing a video call with her sister and this asshole from school pops up.... Now this bitch used to be in Mother's Gov/Econ. class in highschool...and she hated him then too.... He is just that damn annoying... So out of the niceness of her black hole (her heart or lack there of, for those who don't know) she talked back.... Pssshht BIG MISTAKE. This guy...

I'm feeling like crap right about now. I really wish this stress thing would go the fuck away. But I guess that's not going to happen any time soon, not with my mother making me cry every other week. She gave me a lecture on "bettering my life" - okay, fuck it. Every other paycheck of mine goes straight to rent and insurance. The other ones are half spent on gas and food. I can't cook, I don't...

I miss my mother again, shes up there in tampa still, will be for another month :! my father leaves this week to be there for an entire month We are going to get threw this. Ive been giving them half of all my income to help with the bills haha its putting such a stress on things. but its worth it. Its cold out and its amazing. Im drawing and thinking about whats coming up. Halloween is coming up...

I was reading on this board about people who talk in their sleep, and it reminded me of many times my mother would do this during her various stages of drinking. I was never sure if it was the booze or sleep or lack of one of the other, but she used to have huge disjointed conversations with me. The worst was when she woke up at, say, 7pm on a Saturday and think it was 7am on a school day. Sometimes...