My mother is up to her usual criticisms and shennanigans as far as I'm concerned. She is still weight nagging but this is coupled with her berating me about my general appearance. I'm struggling ok...inevitably itch. I've told you a million times in varying ways that I'm not coping well at the moment, I'm obviously stressed and unhappy and still you think its helpful to add to the burden. Gah

So i very much dislike my mother. She divorced my father when i was 2. I haven't seen him since. I don't want to see him. My mother is probably the most irresponsible person i have ever met in my life...in the house in case he had an emergency with his blood sugar. She would eat the candy but put the wrappers back so he would think he had candy but if he was ever dying he would be shit out of luck

To everyone who responded on my mattress question. The SO and I are starting a 'mattress fund' in December, each of us are putting 50 a piece in every month. Please, don't ask me where I'm getting mine...a thing for Peyton Manning, but Kerry Collins has my soul--LOL--he's the reason I started watching football to begin with! Another week looms ahead...sigh. I think I need to go back on my Zoloft, no

ohhhhhhh myyyy goddd.   My mom got home from Los Angeles today and of course my dad sent a car with me in it to pick her up. the whole way back she talked about the fashion shows and l.a. market and...I was having fun. She brought me back a halloween costume from Trashy Lingerie which like Hugh Hefner's girlfriend's shop at so its probably the size of a napkin... I hope everyone is good! xo, hall

she banged on my window i opendd the door she screamed and locked me out i sat outside and watched cars and thought about how cool it's getting and how long she would keep me outside she opened th edoor...to go to bed and turn off the light and i am curled up on my bed now sobbing and i don't know why but it's so quiet in here without the music now and it's so dark and i was so happy ten minutes ag

I just really have to get this out of my system---so I'm sorry if I cause an end to any of my friends illusions of my character on here. I'm completely livid right now, so...please keep that in mind. ...on him. Luckily for him he's all the way in Trinidad, so I guess will never know if I'd actually give into the impulse to key his mode of transportation or rearrange his face, right? Of course right

i am sleepy. i was awakened before i wanted to be. i am aching and shaky. and now, i am a child again.  she only said one sentence,and suddenly i'm ten years old all over again. some things never change.

Did you know the Government mint is going to make pennies silver? Personally, I like them copper, but it's all part of a big to-do about Abraham Lincoln's upcoming 200th birthday or some such. So, says...shot in the head] WHY DID I NOT THINK OF THAT. In other news, my absentee ballot arrived yesterday! I haven't gotten to fill out any bubble-forms since the last time I took the SATs! Very exciting

I wish my mom would act like she loves me for me. I feel like I don't  fit this mold that my mom would want me to, that I'm not good enough nor will I ever be good enough. It's really hard to feel loved... , but never once will I treat my children with such direspect and my husband as well. I'm too loving for that and I care too much about the people in my life to treat them like that.

Okay.  I have been up since 2:30 am, after not getting to sleep until after 11pm.  I am kinda a sleep whore, I like to get in my full 8 hours or I get all pissy.  So forgive the oddly rambling tone of...a girl who walks by the office sets off a spike of lust so strong you can SMELL your arousal?  I am SOOOO screwed. Gotta jet and get ready for work.  This seems to be a good place to vent.  Yay LJ!