...cost and I just have to show up. He said "but I don't know these people and you do" and I thought (and maybe said) "so find someone else. it's all you this time. you set it up and I'll be there." PSG hasn't really talked to me since last Saturday's call. We're said hi in passing and that's about it. I won't be at his house tomorrow because I have to work and I told him that, he seemed fairly indifferent...
...for him and none for me. One of the reasons I love sex is because there are feelings from sex with someone else I can't get from getting myself off. But it still wasn't my dream fuck. And THEN (3) PSG texted me - which has NEVER happened before - because he said my blog post sounded like I was lonely. I texted him back a few things in a row. I said it's too bad I can't order up a meaningful relationship...
...then he failed to get off - twice. At which point he called it a night and left but he asked if he could call me next time he's in town. I said yes, but I don't think I'm gonna take that call. 3. PSG is back. I think anyone who isn't DEAD could've figured that out - except me. I was all "ok, time to get settled into not having him around, ban him from the old IM and quit reading his blog and quit...
BoyToy said he might stop by last night but I told him I couldn't. I was out. We'll see if anything else happens there. PSG caught me on IM yesterday and asked if I wanted to talk on the phone, and I said "I thought you'd never ask!" He probably wouldn't have spoken to me except I said hi. I'd been on all afternoon and he hadn't paid me any mind. So we set a time to talk last night. And talk we...
since giving up abstinence, I've been busy. Not that busy. I didn't count phone sex as breaking abstinence since that's like the same as getting off to porn practically, so not counting that means not...it's not worth the effort. I updated my ad on the adult personals site but I honestly can't imagine having time to meet new people right now, so I dunno why I bothered. Cheerful tonight aren't I
...evening I log in to IM and have 14 messages from the Boy Toy. The one I quit talking to because he was trying to tell me how to live my life (how concerned he was that I couldn't see what a big ol' slut PSG is and what high-risk behavior it was for me to sleep with him etc.) and what to write in this blog. He starts out thinking I'm actually online and have asked him a question. I had said I wanted...
... you're beautiful, here's a virtual rose" nonsense and talk to me like a real person. But he's far away, we're probably never going to meet in real life, so maybe I can practice my flirting a bit. :) PSG was online when I got online tonight. I waited a few minutes and when he didn't talk to me, I just minimized that part of my buddies list so I wouldn't have to see him being online not talking to me...
...starting to think a little NSA fun won't kill me, as long as I don't spend too much time on finding it or get overly involved with my partners. Plus, I'm horny. :) Speaking of over involved, PSG has been trying to reach me. He's sent me the occasional IM over the last couple of months and responded to the occasional LJ entry of mine, but he's never emailed me, he's never called me. Then I...
