...ready for the garbage people tomorrow. It was then that something struck me as odd, and I couldn't put my finger on it, it wasn't untill the baby woke up from his nap that I realized, my house was Quiet. WAY TO QUIET! I guess I grew accustomed to my children and my childrens friends running around, in and out of the hosue, slamming the screen doors and fighting with each other and themselves...
I stopped by the cafe at Borders Books this morning, and overheard the older gentleman in front of me talking about how quiet the store was today. The clerk confirmed that he was, in fact, the first customer he'd had in nearly 40 minutes. The old guy seemed pretty cool—he was probably in his mid-70s, was wearing a suit, and had long, white hair. He looked like a cross between Marcus Aurelius from...
...I just wish we don't have to go there during English class. Good thing we didn't today. ♥♥♥ Hayzz.. The life of 7th grade is out of whack. Here's a thing:I HATE NOISE. Not that I hate it,I just want quiet tome sometimes. An Arashi song in background would be nice. But if you hear all your classmates yakking and blah,blah,blah-ing all at the same time,that's PURETORTURe. I even walk out at times...
Yesterday afternoon I ended up going out grocery shopping with mom. It started out bad as usual...maybe worse. But then I was aware that Broken and 12 were there so that made me really happy but really...for sure, I do remember that. Oops. Promised them a movie, is what I did lol. Better write it down before I forget! I So I'm feeling better that they haven't gone and they are still with me. :
Things have been strangelyquiet around the grocerystore latey. There has been no trouble coming from certain employees-- Naruto-kun, I'm talking to you --since the "Hannah Montanaincident". I expect that someone is probably planning something again. And, to whoever is or will be planning some "prank" to pull in the store, remember... I see everything in this store. So, onto a less troubling...
So, Monday was quite a disgustingly messy day. Drew did talk to Brice. But as usual, I got no real, solid answer. Brice apparently told him that what he said Friday 'no longer mattered', and that he did...when he was talking to someone. It sounded like a girls voice but I couldn't tell. But he clearly said Sarah High that much I know. If he thinks he's confused, he should try living a day in my life
sometimes i question myself, why am i like this, why cant i just show people who i really am. i found the answer, im too shy and scared to do so. i make myself look like the quiet person i am because im too scared to show people im a funny, sarcastic, outgoing person. i dont like expressing myself to people, i feel like im stuck somewhere and cant get out, i wish i can just show ppl. im afraid of...
Sometimes when It's too quiet I get around to thinkign about stupid stuff I'd rather not think about otherwise. This time it was focused on how many times I seem to get myself into fucked up situations, mostly with girls, my mom or just picking at my own flaws, the last one there doesn't really help with the whole Low-Self esteem issue. Question. Why do I always seem to get myself into fucked up...
...time, but sometimes I feel unhappy with them. I also (you wont beleive it after reading this entry) usually come accross as happy. I look very young for my age and my voice also sounds young and quiet, and this is often pointed out by people, most unfortunatley....employers...who want someone authorative and confident. Its not that I lack too much confidence, I am good at chatting to new people...
