...positive.  The line was almost as dark as the "control" line.  I took a cheap one after that, to make sure it wasn't a false positive or whatever, and it was positive but very, very faint.  If I'm pregnant, I want to know.  The expensive ones usually give sooner/more reliable results.  But cheap tests are all I can afford!  So I don't know what the hell to do.  I need to scheme.  To get out of the...

Okay.   So last night my boyfriend and I were going at it, and right before anything really started , he pulls himself away from me, looks at me for a few moments and goes "You remembered to take...is being given false hope that it will happen soon, and then having that hope ripped away from you.   *sigh* Sorry for the whiny rant.  But this is so frustrating, and I needed to vent somewhere.  

...I love it more than anything.  19 and 20 year old girls... some even younger.  I'm so envious of them... and so proud.  I admire them so much.   I think about the moment that they found out they were pregnant.  I think about what they must have felt at that exact moment.  The fear and nerves they felt taking the test.  And waiting for it.  The moment they laid eyes on the little pink plus sign. ...

...I usually get when we discuss these things* What, get pregnant? Nate: No.  Me: Gain weight during my pregnancy? Nate: No.  Me: What then? Nate: Research it, and then not want to get pregnant.  I'll be the one that wants to have a baby, and you'll be saying "you're burnt!  I'm not gaining that weight!" *cue shocked face by me, then laughter by both* I just thought it was shocking...