It's come up more than once, lately, in casual conversation and blog entries and other forums for meandering thoughts that we grow up and learn and live in a world of deadlines, and that maybe some attributes...or imperfect-bug-good-enough-to-be-abandoned projects that it feels like sometimes, everything in life becomes a destination. At least, I seem to err on the side of thinking along those lines.

Годы блужданий по запыленным коридорам внутреннего лабиринта привели меня к замурованной лестнице, которая когда-то вела наверх. Я не помню, что там, наверху. И никогда не узнаю, наверное. Наверх - наверное...моей голове, и бьются в стекла зрачков, и отражаются от стенок черепа. И я сижу у подножия лестницы, замурованной лестницы наверх, и я никогда не узнаю, что там, навер ху. Поезда. Поезда-поезда.

So last night I go to load up my Sims 2 game so I could play the Starlings a bit, and so I could get started on my Rainbow Legacy (hehehe, I have awesome plans for this one).  Everything loads up normally...that I am not going to be able to get it to work. Does anyone have any advice on what might cause this? Or about how to fix it? Any help or insight is appreciated.  I am feeling pretty panicked.

     I just started my new job, and the adjustment is quite stressful and difficult. I am still doing all of my other activities, yet I do not know if I am doing them for my glory or for God's. I do not...at the most dire of times.  We only see each other about two hours a day on a normal day, and he doesn't seem to want to make use of that time. We will see how this goes; today's dare is kindness

today is quite a long day.. pretty fun yet tiring. did many things, such as lunch at Fish and Co which was like super ultra noisy and they still blasted music louder?! to try n drown the customers' voices...are good at, is being inadequate. it's our nature, and we cant do anything abt it. so, why not accept it and realise tt we need God in our lives? :) it takes true humility to realise that.

вчора до глибокої ночі разом з chee і перфоратором робив вклад в розвиток власного бізнесу. на жаль, це не будівництво ... сьодня зранку був на кастингу (дяка ur_sa ). якшо всі зорі...стануть у відповідну позу - буду зніматись в рекламі 0:-) а зара в job ую в коханому офісі (хз, хто то придумав, але йому теж дякую) life is full of opportunities - just don't forget to dream a bit

*** Нафантазировала тут, что было бы если бы я жила в деревне) Я бы пошла в школу учителем английского языка, и по совместительству пионэрвожатой (да-да, в нашей школе такая должность цветет и благоухает...их ни разу. В конце весны животноводу захотелось бы улучшить жилищные условия, и мы бы сыграли свадьбу. Для этого мне бы пришлось продать собаку и баян... А потом? А потом бы ничего не было

Today my mood is really bad. While doing my usual depressed-procrastination in the computer room, one of my uncles started talking to my dad on his computer, and the conversation went to us going to...my best to enjoy it ^^ Though I will definitely have to blog down my deeper feelings about it sometime before I go. There's so many things I've been thinking about it and wanting to say about it too

Life is a big experiment, whereby you try and rise or try and then fall, but it doesn't really matter whether you rise or fall, what matters is that you tried and will keep trying. Trying to make the world... Let the elements be a reminder to you wherever you are, or whenever you're down or in distress. Keep moving like the wind, flowing like the water, shining like the fire, and standing like the eart