today's schedule: 0140 right now :B 0330 get up hnnngh 0430 (cage) arrive, get in service dress 0500 induction ceremony 0520 talk to mcnamara about retreat 0525 chug a gatorade with a caffeine pill...pin with my rank pin, though... *nostalgiafag* I'm actually not going to go to sleep tonight. I can't sleep without having really unsettling dreams about my dad. It's starting to piss me off

it is so fucking hot it is fucking 93 outside and our AC isn't working what the fuck it is also humid and sticky jesus christ what the hell If it thunderstorms, though, I guess I'll try my hand (foot?) at parkour again. So tired from Candidate Weekend. Am now officially an Arnold Air Society active. Huzzah! I think some Shit is about to go Down, and it's going to severely piss me off.

...-AGAIN i raise my hand- then he goes okay moving on. never talks about the subject agian. i was like.. ..............?? reallly:/// lol  dummmmmb so there is this boy... :D he is in band and rotc. im in band and choir. so anyway. this morning i went with him to rotc and i was really scared he was like hahah:) just come on. but then it was not as bad as i thought.. but then again i didnt talk...

...would have helped, apparently. At least Rountree felt like cluing us in, unlike the trainers or other Actives. He's actually one of my favorite cadet officers; I've known him since before he was ROTC, and he still treats me as such, even getting ticked off when I call him "sir." We got screamed at, failed a test, got screamed at, got walked out on, got screamed at some more, and only then was...

I'm so tired. I've been up since 3:45 this morning. Got ready for the competition. Went to school. Ward and I were the only ones there. It was five or ten minutes before someone else showed up. Anyways...was going to break my bearing and have him get mad at me even more. Unarmed went pretty smoothly. I don't feel like describing anything. But here's a picture... Or not. Screw this, I'm going to mope

...my feelings to myself when they make themselves known to me. I won't tell anyone next time. Telling Dylan was a mistake. And I wish I hadn't told him. Now that I'm done being whiny, I'll brag about ROTC. Maybe that'll distract me. I hate bragging though... Oh well. This is my journal, so whatever. At least I'm not whining and bragging to other people. Well, I got promoted to Cadet Staff Sergeant...

God damn, do I look tired or what. To be fair, I did wake up at 0330 this morning to catch a train. Fuck public transportation. Why do fat people always sit near me? I do not like this turn of events...respect, and I know of at least twice this semester alone that he was sent up to talk to the cadet colonel. I don't want someone that won't stick up for themselves to get hurt because I didn't speak up

(to the tune of Yellow Polka Dot Bikini) She got her itsy bitsy teeny tiny combat boots all bright and shiny For the RAATI inspection day Her itsy bitsy teeny tiny combat boots all bright and shiny...that you can't possibly do anymore. And then, of course, comes the next boot. Those are some teeny-tiny boots. That ruler is a 6-inch ruler, and of course white paper is white paper.

...replied by saying thank you and gave a noh-mask smile. The kind where you can't really tell what i'm thinking. Edwards was not in class and then Huizar seemed annoyed for some reason. I had lunch in ROTC again up until the last ten minutes. Speech kinda just passed along becuase we had lame busy work that we're doing since "Guys and Dolls" is going on. Mr. Flemming is treating us like 5th graders...

... I was incredibly sad and anxious over some topics and wanted to go home and nap until Zach came over to help me with math. However English did not go by fast and physics was even slower. By the time ROTC came around i was sad, annoyed and anxious. i mean , I'm often sad but this was just about equal to me crying for three hours minus the crying. we got a seating chart change since ranks have been...