On Saturday I saw Maddy get beat up by her granddad. Freaking out, I ran over to Ty's in tears, only to find out from Sophie that he was 'in the shower'. Since he was supposed to be at my house already...him for as long as he needs me. We're meeting up to go to the Halloween lunch at the village hall today. Maybe something will have changed. Maybe I'm stupid for thinking that. Darkest wishes, Grey x

quick note: I've removed about the least-used 10-20% of tags (literally by usage level). I give it five minutes until you bastards use them all up again ;) am very busy at the moment, so squint and pretend this is an hilarious goth macro: [ 8 ...] bonus points for guessing what it is/says.

Can anyone point me in the direction of a fic where Charlie gets kidnapped or hurt working with Don?  Protective Don is good and hurt Charlie. Charlie/Don is also good. But I don't want a cheese fic or...in is one where Charlie is depressed or has dangerous tendencies and Don doesn't realise it until it's too late. And one other: one where Don is possessive. Anything sound familiar? Help is *hugs*  =

here’s the obvious: cutting, burning, poisoning, hitting, and biting oneself. Then there’s the not-so-obvious stuff that can miscontrued as something else: scratching, starving, drug use, alcohol use,... but that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped completely. Scratching is the lesser evil I guess. Tonight I took the key to my room to my skin. Pain and not a drop of blood spilled. It makes me want to dance.

It's like a secret deep inside, One that i have learnt to hide, You people you will never see, This darkest fear inside of me, While outside i laugh and grin, Inside there's a rotten...Is shattered cold and weak She can't go back to who she was There's no way that it could be The happy girl has long been lost Into the vast abyss She can't go back at any cost That girl she doesn't miss.

I'm wondering if it's ridiculous to consider going to the ER for something like this. For me, nights are extremely bad. They are much worse than the day for me. While my anxiety is worse during the...ironically I cannot function at all. I'm sorry this was long and kind of repetitive, it's not something I really know how to explain. And I don't want to waste their time, but I'm really despairing

Yadda yadda yadda. *boredom* I've noticed something. When things are on the up.. something has to go wrong. It ALWAYS happens like that, and I've tried to fix it -- I really have -- but it never works...out the best work, and creativity in me, though. Torturing yourself is NOT good, however. You can never get good nachos with a lot of guacamole. *disappointed* Cheers, yo. Almost deranged, Gippa

hello everyone! i've kind of stumbled upon this community and have a couple questions, kind of. i'm not sure i have a panic or anxiety disorder (i don't even really know that much about it) but lately...disorders or what the symptoms are (internet searches have come up with pretty vague results, for the most part, and i would love to hear from REAL people). thanks so much and sorry for rambling

i dont really know what to write. things seem so fucking wrong. and i dont know why. everything seems to be falling apart around me. i cant explain it. i've just come back from holiday, which in most ways... to know that part of my head knew there was one, maybe even brought it with me and ye. shit, im losing it. ima gonna shut the hell up now. this is quite long and garbled and boring and ye. xx