I want to get rid of all the bad things in my life. All the things that make me sad- and icky-feeling. (This is not an existential post. This is more like "hey, those jeans never looked good on me, I will...view of what you *want* can change. - It feels like we're stuck with the lives we were born with, but I KNOW that we get to make the lives we want. I just hope I can remember that more often. ;

So yesterday, I woke up after two rather odd dreams, at 2:00pm, had breakfast, played some Mafia Wars, made some coffee, and then had a five hour talk with my Mum and brother about life, the universe,...start properly assessing the world as it is. Yes, there may be hidden mines and artillery fire ahead, but I have tools, maps, detectors, ammunition. I have resources and I need to learn how to use them

Watched the first three episodes of Pushing Daisies . My insides are a pile of Lee Pace mush. Literally. I heard them squish and dissolve. I can barely look at him and not feeling giddy. *shakes head*...not one, not two, but THREE new Volvos over the course of the last month. I'm supremely smiley. (OMGOODNESS, totally forgot about NED/CHUCK MOODTHEME. My stomach just may not make it through this.

Sometimes, this is true: (image source in link) * this is just an observation, in the moment, when I reach that time in the workday when I'm pleasantly okay. When the worries of the RoadWarrior...think or suggest. It's not a non-direction. It's just smaller, possibly wiggley, and likes to think it follows the whispers on the wind. (It doesn't, necessarily.) But never fear! ;) We are all okay.

Sometimes I wonder why we all do this... why we live and love and have our hearts broken and mended, and over and over we still strive to believe that life is worth living and worth something and worth...imaginable. It's the cute guy in the parking lot asking if you need help carrying the four different bags, even when you reply with a smile "No, thanks." It's the way life is just as it always is

There was a moment this morning when I realized being upset was not the Lord, it was just me. And when I realized being annoyed was not going to get me anywhere. And when I realized other people exist... * Although as a disclaimer, I make no claim to this succeeding longer than an hour or so. :D That this is probably the hardest thing I will do ever for the whole of life. The epic battle of wills.

Did I mention I went ice skating last night? I did. On top of Whole Foods. It was much fun. (Mostly because there were only like six people skating the whole hour I was there.) One of the safety guys... but for me, with my current circumstances, there's this waiting-for-the-envelope-to-arrive and me to find out what is "appropriate" for me.) Right now, of course, it's putting clothes away. ;