...turning into a migraine. I ended up wrapping my head in a pillow and falling asleep early. Which was kind of nice, because I got enough sleep, but that meant no Pendergast time. Boo. Anyway, Tyler is better in that respect. His milk cup smelled funny, so maybe he had left it out without me knowing, and he drank some bad milk? I don't know. Either way, he didn't have any tummy episodes today...

Lounging in his seat, Tony swirled the little bit of scotch left in his glass. It was mostly just ice and the waitress-- cleverly dressed as a naughty police officer-- was no where to be seen. Maybe he should've just bought the bottle at the rate he was going... "I think we might have to call a cab to get back to the island," Tony said solemnly. [[For the other part of Team Awesome!]]

I've been avoiding people since I got kicked out last week, so I figured I should make a few calls this afternoon.

...Aunt Linda lives, and I don't want him finding out that way that I've been kicked out. I don't want him finding out. He's got exams coming up, he shouldn't have my problems on his shoulders. And Tyler. That was Tyler, calling five minutes ago. He's probably beside himself, since I haven't answered back his calls. I sigh and stop up against the building, opening the phone and closing it. Then...

A few letters from Tyler came in the mail. He actually mentioned me, which was interesting. "I miss seeing Ashley every morning when she goes to work I even miss when she naggs at me"

I am so tired. I can feel the stress melting away. Now I'm just exhausted. I got the job. School turned out fine. Tyler and I are amazing. i got my period. I cried. I have never been so happy and relieved in my entire life. I really do think we're going to last. We've been through so much and we're doing really well. Claire's fighting with half the world, and I miss Lina more than I could possibly...

...transformed into an analytical mind that helps me avoid social faux pas now by intensely analyzing social interactions, but my rules for interaction are still different and they always will be. Tyler gave me reason to believe that it wasn't wrong for me to be striving for self-awareness and the truth when everyone seemed to think a self-centric culture permeated by pop culture was the best possible...

... did not use the term "fuck" but she meant the same thing. But anyway, on my way home, I tried my best to ignore that evil little girl, but unfortunatly, I failed. And so she trailed after me and Tyler as we walked and yelled out to the latter, "Do you want to do, Nikki." Tyler was quiet for a moment, but refused to answer. She took his silence as a yes, but then asked again, and Tyler told her...

Tomorrow is the first day of eleventh grade. I have a job interview after school. My period is over three days late. I got in a fight with Tyler yesterday because we had a big dicussion about marriage. He thinks if I say I don't want to marry him it means I don't love him. I asked if anything I had done over the entire summer (i.e. breaking up with my boyfriend for him, saying I loved him, being in...

... i'm not gonna burn any bridges because i still consider all of them my friends, but i kinda need a break. emily is getting up my ass about everything, first and foremost being friends with tyler, which i dont' really care if she has a stick up her ass about tyler the kid is like my little brother. pretty much everyone in marching band can kiss my ass, mr. wilson at the front of the line...