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I think I've decided to stay in Ames for another year. I can't afford to live in Des Moines by myself. So Jessie has been looking at apartments here for the two of us. One of the guys that she works with...the fall so we might try to find a place with him. I still haven't met him but we're Facebook friends. She said he's nerdy, likes nerd games and he has three cats. He sounds like a cool guy to me.
21° and feels like seven! Welcome back, winter. Kelsea and I have been looking for vacation rentals for the summer when we go to Culver. I am so ready for good weather, jet skiing, drinking adult beverages on the water, and great friends! Come onnnnn summer!
Everything feels like a weird power struggle today. Political even. Since therapy Monday I feel like no one wants me around. All this past self worth stuff came up of not being wanted and not knowing...pattern again. Being over generous and kind to people who don't really appreciate it or even really like. I'm just good for what they can get out of me. Ugggghhhhh.... Buying a ticket to Arizona.
I stopped getting the depo shot back in October and last Monday I finally got my period for the first time in a long time. I still have it and I feel like it's draining my life away. I forgot how much I hate them.
Wow, it's hard to believe that a week ago, I was snowed in at my house! It's nearly 50°, and the snow is almost gone. Crazy Midwest weather. I hear another large storm is coming our way, so I won't hold...enjoyed learning new things about the work that I do. We are going out with Ashley and Anthony on Saturday, and I hope it is in celebration rather than drowning my sorrows! Here's hoping I pass.
Slept super late at Elisabeth's after dicking around on the Internet till 5am. Ooops.... Got up and just had a relaxing girl day with Hillary. We went crystal shopping then had miso soup and seaweed salad...poker so made back all the money I spent $$$$ and it's been super relaxing in there since the new year. Super happy right now : ) full of love, gratitude, and hope. Just feeling extremely blessed.
Yes I realize I have problems with anxiety and I can be quite controlling when it comes to my kids. I know that I need to allow Matthew to take hold of the reins a lot more. But at the same time, I hate...the two of us could just check out for a week. I miss him. I don't mean tough him away, but I often see myself doing it without fully thinking about it. I need to stop. This shit has got to stop.