-Flails- I've been randomly selected for jury duty. Crapcrapcrap! I have two final art critiques that day! Have e-mailed teachers; am waiting for a response. -collapses in a puddle-

Lets get this over with: Halloween: It's a holiday about the supernatural. People dress up in costumes (all kinds) and uh, go out on that night. It's kinda based on 'scary,' and you'll see decorations... I'll just have to take care of them. The ones I can, whether I'm bad at it, or not. All I can do. Then I've got this other thing on my mind.. not sure I want to bring it up, but it's there.

I know I've got way too fucking much on my mind when self-imposed sleep deprivation doesn't work for me.  I'm so tired I'm stumbling around and can't hold a chosen thought for more than a few seconds...having to desperately look for mindless distractions to try to drown out all of the thoughts. I'm so glad I don't have to work today...I just don't think I could deal with anything if I did. 

...that might need a solution. Now, most of this does not apply to those who read this. Your minds work at the same high speed that mine does. My problem is what my mind does with the leftover time. I worry. I obsess. Usually about problems I have no control over. As someone once said to me, "well, since we have solutions to all the world's problems, what should we do now?" Not to be too flippant, but...

Even if it was just the two of us, I think Boo-chan's birthday celebration was a success!! We went to Heimdal and bought Chinese food (only to get my mom to pick us up because of the rain, while watching... I'm glad you had fun today Boo-chan!! 大好きだよ！！ ...Now if Code Geass would finally download.... ALSO! Look forward to more Chinpo-chronicles shortly!! I have a couple of new ones for you! x

So I now have a shit job working at Bath & Body works for $7.50 an hour. Orientation is Monday at 4:00, but before I can do that I need to go buy a couple of black collared shirts. And some black "comfortable"...end. But hey, maybe the woman of my dreams is actually a frequent B&BW customer...? Wouldn't that be a lovely reason to get up in the morning? Heheheh, girls give me butterflies like I'm 13. Oh girls

 So I just rediscovered a bunch of websites.... like LiveJournal, and deviantART, etc. Here's a link to my deviantART account, because I don't think I've posted it here before...  labruyere.deviantart...I'm very sorry if I depressed you as much as I depressed myself.  My roommate is crying on the phone in her room. I don't even have someone that I can cry to. She doesn't realize how lucky she is. 

...was erased by Alzheimer's. She told me a while ago, while we waited for my aunt to die, that she was afraid she'd suffer the same fate. I, of course, told her she would suffer no such fate, and not to worry. And neither of us quite knew what to believe about what we were saying.      My mother is an amazing woman. I love her dearly, and am so glad that she's my mother. Her life has been tough, but she's...

[Lu is currently pacing around her room, trying to think of why these costumes are doing what they're doing to everyone. Of course, she's still in her own costume, still looking much like Jessica Rabbit... and she's humming under her breath as she does so, a sad song. She's really trying to figure it out. It was sort of fun at first, but NOT NOW. Hojo is terrifying, and a bad reminder of her past.]

...Knowing that the only thing left for you to do is cry. ...Because no one who could help you even cares that you exist. ...And everyone who can't help wishes so badly that they could. ...Yeah. ...That totally sucks. ...I love all you guys.