...it helps you keep in touch with friends - but to me it seems just another technological advancement that separates the masses through impersonality. I wrote this entry today in my diary: Dear Heart, I know at times like these the world seems a dark and destitute land. The road is rough and the journey is becoming more difficult. One day you will realize that you are not alone in suffering...

  Look at me What do you see? Love Desire Sadness I look at you What do I see? Friendship Happiness The fact that you don't love me You broke my heart You told everyone They all know They mock me for loving you I want to forgive and forget But I can't I love you too much I want you to love me back But that's impossible You want nothing with me When you hurt me You don't apoligise When...

... Like they finally admit how much they love each other and well ... yah. Then they get married and have kids, and that's it. It just appears so empty, like something real is missing. There is no heart to the story to keep it beating, and so it flat lines. If it flat lines, then I guess I could say most stories flat line constantly because it misses a real heart to it. So do I like slash? Fuck...

...im pooring out my fealings to her.. shes inturupting me.. giving off "i dont give a damn" body signals.. yeah.. just being plain rude. and when i finnish.. she says "Are you done?" that just ripped my heart right there. The fact that i just went all out and tryed to talk about things i have been trying to talk about for years now.. and what does she do? she asks if im done talking to her.. so i went...

So, I got my practice car a few days ago- it had a shitload of stuff wrong with it and most of it was fixed today. The only thing left is the break pads and they'll last at least 10 more days. It's a...urge to write about Terry McGinnis. Terry McGinnis . *sporfleflailLOVES* Anyway... I probably won't post anything (barring updates for JaG) for a while- I need time to plan and all that jazz.

hunnie, whatever happens. i'm still here.. (though currently still gotta fuck some books.) but, you know i do love you deepdeep! reached home from my 2nd paper + dental and i am still here, online at 12mn! bless me. i should study because next paper is 2 days later. yawnz. why am i so not disciplined?

... okay, you know those moments in movies, especially Disney, that make you go "Oh, for crying out loud, that doesn't WORK in real life!" because of their sheer corniness? But then the same thing happens to you a bit later and it. . .well, works? ...and then you feel all sheepish because it did? Maybe not such a bad thing. I'm not very good at recognizing when I am happy.

Sora. He kissed me. What. Do. I. DO?!

...LIKE HIM ALREADY. AND I'D LIKE TO PETITION TO ENSURE HE SPENDS MORE TIME SHIRTLESS, PLZ. BUT *ADAM*. MOVING THE CAR! DYING TRAGICALLY! BECOMING A SUSPECTED TERRORIST IN HIS DEATH! No, really. My heart can't cope with more of this. I was devastated when Zaf died last year, and Danny the year before that. And now this! OH ADAM! In other news, I feel ashamed. No, really, I do. My mum wanted me to...

Tora-Tora just got a new brother! That's so cool! Tora, Tora, maybe you and your brother can make a'splosions! OOO! If you do, bring me along! :D :D :D I wanna make things go boom, too! ... I think I'm...thing. I think. Um, gotta remember---OHOHOH!! MOMMY! MOMMY! ... ... Can we go to the costume party, Mommy? :O I WANNA BE A BUNNY FOR THIS HALLOWEEN WHATSIT!! Can I be a bunny, mommy, pleeeeeeease