I discovered today that a friend of mine and Duckie's lost her baby in july. Note i dont think she'd be the best parent, but still it made me sad. I heard a few weeks ago that my teacher/coach of 4 years miscarried as well. Last night i dreamed that Duckie broke up with me and i woke up crying. and today i noticed something. For the past few days i've been having sharp pains in my abdomen. My family...

Sososososososososo, I get to go trick-or-treating. And I'm gonna go as someone from the mafia. So, I'm gonna borrow a fedora from either Liz or Jason if they don't forget. I need a squirt gun. Just for...when I was 1. Oh goodness. I was freaking innocent and couldn't talk! But I could walk..? WOT? I also was holding a bottle and following my dad around his SUPER OLD SHOP. I apparently just waved... o.

Всегда ж ведь найдутся приятные люди, которые напишут "Камиказа заполонила!", вместо того, чтобы понять, что Камиказа просто из тех, кто тихой сапой делает, а не п... Я уже даже не обижаюсь. Только вот...он исключительно от людей. А у меня Верёнок, и сегодня первый день рождения у моего первого племянника, и он так смешно морщит носик и пыхтит. И они напару такие ангелочки. А впереди - это. Грустно

so I can't wait till I go up to see Nik Erik & Cole tomorrow :) yayness! in my counseling techniques class, I found out I'm actually doing stuff right! we did a feedback group thing the other night when...great when I thought I was just barely doing it right... shows what I know. It was great to finally have some feedback on what I was doing... and that I was doing it right! ME: 3 for 3 grad school: :-

Copy this sentence into your livejournal if you're in a heterosexual marriage, and you don't want it "protected" by the bigots who think that gay marriage hurts it somehow. Ok now that that's all out...office about my appointment on Monday and I am losing it right now. Like going bat shit crazy. Do I want to do this?? Am I nuts?? What is the matter with me?? Could BE any more indecisive????

... that I might actually be pregnant. Yes, I know that I'm on the birth control pill, but I had to take some very powerful antibiotics, too, and it's common knowledge that the pill doesn't work very...I was dreaming of babies. But, nahhhhhhhhhhhh. No such luck. Oh well. I'm over it now. But it woulda been one heck of a great miracle, wouldn't it have??? Ya know me, always in search of a miracle

Неострые, негневные, но регулярные и оживленные. В основном, на тему воспритания ребенка. А точнее не тему того, что я считаю, что воспитывать некоторые вещи еще рано, т.е. осознания их еще нет, а попытки...Но неуверена. И мамин авторитет гнетет. А вдруг я неправа? Вырастит монстрик, который будет неуправляем? Задатки все к этому есть. Может, малодушие мое? Всегда ведь проще разрешать, чем запрещать.

...watching my own daughter sleep in our dysfunctional way, all petty problems dissolve in the shadow of this grief. I feel so extremely blessed for a healthy happy child, and so very heartbroken for baby Aly and her family. I can say, shes in my thoughts- or in my prayers- but in reality; that does nothing. She is still struggling for her life, and all I can do is cry for her, and hope that one...

So apparently there's a pumpkin shortage. I couldn't find one anywhere, so that's possibly true. This time tomorrow, we may be carving swedes or gourds, but at least we spent tonight making (pretty rubbish...from Specsavers and rang me to say they could have me a new lens within 2-3 working days. In your face, Specsavers. * And they ended up being decorated by me, so I'm dissing myself, not Item here