...being introduced or otherwise put of the spot (being asked a question in class or having to order in a restaurant) generally brings panic. Tears are a form of release which I am able to control in less stressful situations. In the past few years I have been very depressed overall. High school was the best section of schooling thus far, but came with its own weight of mistakes and trials...

...detectable physical markings are left and it isn`t painful like having something broken, also Illuminati rape, torture physically, disable, beat, drug, traumatize kids when they start their total-mind-control, free-to-employ lifestyle of someone. could say i am / we are having a holiday. but is that a reason that they have allowed this kind of underground "reality" to develop that i should join them...

Have you ever felt like you don't belong?  I have sometimes, even often.  That's how I feel right now, on a daily basis.  I'm struggling so hard to be something, something that I don't even know how to...something more acceptable...i.e. a slimmer waistline.  5lbs lost this week, and now another week ahead to start all over again.  I will not falter.  I can't because right now it's all I have...

This isn't my first time blogging, but frankly on here it is. Just a minor note for today. I never knew someone could have control over your world because you gave them the power to. See we subject our minds to others to think that's the only way of getting through. WRONG. People have control over our minds because we allow them to. People try to purposely piss us off, make us feel bad, or in general...

2009 , Control , HDRip , Limits , контроля , Предел http://warezzznik.org.ua Чужак в чужом краю, он живет вне закона и никому не доверяет. Его единственная цель — выполнение миссии, окончательный смысл которой остается туманным. Его путь по Испании напоминает сон, хотя пролегает по конкретному маршруту. Во »

... then you feel like there is terrorism on the way, okay a self-centred terrorism but still it's freaking scary!!! Anyway, I only wanted to say it's way too stupid to think so much, I mean you cannot control anything right? But still you feel like you need to, you have to, otherwise the world would collapse, but it never has so far, so, vicious circle, nervous breakdown on the way .... but the worse...

Afraid of losing control, you keep the leash tight..

...loved me and she wouldn't lie, that I was offended by their statements and wrote them off. She did and said a lot of shit that fucked with my head, in good ways as well as bad. She had some type of control over me that I was sure of nothing else after the meeting with her fiance and our chat other than I wanted to end my life, or leave FL and never look back. I did neither. It all worked itself out...

...believed what priests and such say just because of their position. But, ultimately, the fact that Christianity expects that drives me away. The entire hierarchical structure of the clergy is about control. You're supposed to kiss your priest's hand (I never have), supposedly because of the fact that he holds the eucharist and thus his hands are holy*. And say "Father, bless". When it comes to your...

Someone put up a thread on FL about using sex as a weapon. I wrote out a long ass post and I thought it would good if I posted it here. Yes, I know it's sort of cheating with not really writing a new...abuse, though. It's a tool for him, and a fucking effective one based on my issues. With DK, I can't use it as a defensive weapon. He's using it as an offensive one.   It really does make me think.