After ALL of the joint inflammation recently from dairy contamination thought it might be a good idea to take some Glucosamine for joint repair. After all the Dog is on it, and takes it twice a day in...spend a birthday. And wondering again if I should just shuck all my Western Pretense and complication and embrace the Tao. Will be signing off now for the night, as that maintenance run is coming

so its halloween tomorrow, ive been stressed out lately because of my friends and because of myself. I wish little things didnt bother me as much as they did, but alas, I am so empathetic towards others...:( I also have a test tomorrow and haven't studied. ugh. I'm still not 100 percent on what I want to do with my life...so this post is totally emo right? yea I know. don't judge me, i kill you. -gwen

Well, I'm free from work! Anf Tomorrow, Halloween is here! I'm going to go to the Rail, party, sing, and go home and sleep! Here's and early wish to you all! Cute pic I found! ^^ lol                                            

She died today. Of natural causes, so they say. As I talked to her futilely, trying to coax her into life. She gave up, decided to end her strife. I laid my head back and held in the tears. Her heart just...through sad yellow eyes. Her body showing the wear that new paint could not disguise. I blew her a kiss and wiped a tear from my cheek as she faded from view. That van meant more to me than anyone knew.

 I visited your memory today, just stopped by to say hello. There’s so much left to say, so much you need to know. I opened up and spilled my heart into the wind. This bottled up resentment hurts...your memory once stood. It had disappeared, I knew somehow it would. The flowers drifted into the breeze, I smiled and watched them go. This moment of good bye helped more than you’ll ever know.

so, how is marina holding up? I have good days and I have bad days. today has been a bad day.  waking up from bad dreams, head/sinus pain, and gallons of tears = not a good way to start a day. I shuffle...to do?  i can't just sit here.  but, i'm not quite functional at doing much else today. i know this will all pass in time.....but i can't help feeling this way, and don't know what to do with myself.

Modern Film & Lit- We're watching Shaun of the Dead because of the Halloween season. I won't lie, I like that movie--even if the ending is lame. Simon Pegg is ok by me. And I totally recognized Lucy...need to hear that stuff, but I was so depressed by that point in the day that I just wanted to go home. As soon as I got on the bus I had to listen to the Scissor Sisters just to keep my spirits up

So, I decided what I want on my gravestone: "In extreme circumstances, the assailants can be stopped by removing the head or destroying the brain." You know, just in case. And in national news, that... She also belongs to a burlesque dance troupe called 'Satanic Sluts' . I'm not making this up.  And Jonathon Ross may lose his job over this. More eyerolling could not be affected than is right now

I just got a message from my dad that my grandmother passed away last night. Pnuemonia, just like my grandfather years before her. She and I hadn’t spoken in several years. My soon to be ex has a large...hope you will consider subscribing to my RSS feed . Feeling sociable? Join me on Twitter , I'd love to hear from you! Originally published at Suburban Oblivion . Please leave any comments there.

...myself more and more for it every passing day.... I wish I didn't have the morals that kept me from just ending this reign of stupidity... But no... I'll stay and suffer through it like always until life itself finally twists my path into Death's grip... I'm not even afraid of it... I long for it ... Just to make this joke of an existence end with it's dull punchline... ...I'm so done... Neuro~