I don't like it when she's not happy, or disappointed. I don't like when she yells. It makes me feel like I've done so wrong that it can never be reversed or forgiven. I don't like how I can't make her...this is stress or me being a pain in the ass. These are the only times I wish I had a different personality, the only times I doubt my true self, the times that make me want to change completely.
It's sick how much I want you right now. The whole nearly silent thing is really working for you. I don't think I could want you more. I really need to stop this. I need to leave you alone. I need you... trying to get a conversation out of you. I want you to want to know me. I'm sorry. I really messed things up. I don't know how to fix it. This is the only way I can think of. Forgive me.
thats spanish for: "i really like handsome boys." im beginning to believe i like these boys a bit too much. ive been acting like such a whore lately. ive flirted with about 321783972189371893718931 in...back so bad. i didnt get any of it on me but thank god it was only for a second that i kissed him. so am i a whore? i mean two guys. one month. flashing. one had a girlfriend. bad. bad. bad.
famous last words. so many many things wrong. yet i am (8 days later - funny enough the title of a zombie flick) still down. feel pretty shredded. like how can HE reject ME? granted. not hot like a...is my only place to vent and not feel THAT ashamed for it. god im fucked up. all i can do is keep lying to myself - saying it will be ok and trying to go on like it is - but its just pretend anyway
...I could do that again this year. Being cold is sucky business. cleolinda posted something about NKOTB on her journal and it totallyreminded me of days that now make me hang my head in shame. I have asked Cynthia if she'll buy the greatest hits cd for me because if anyone sees me buying it, I don't think I'll ever be able to hold my head up in public again. New Mexico doesn't seem to...
I needed the laugh, honestly. No matter what, you can always count on me for encyclopedic knowledge of... certain subjects. Carly had a fewmore questions for me regarding the practice of certain sexual...first time, aside from the physical. ...But you're a genius when it comes to emotion, so I'm sure you'll do just fine. ^^ ...I'm so proud of you!! XD ...Sigh. Going to go work on my automail now..
My friend tendegreesbelow found this video on the Internet, and I'm afraid what it says about me is absolutely true. Watch it yourself . Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I hope I can live with myself for what I have done to you. To me. To all of us. Please forgive me. .
I needed some time So I could find a little strength to redefine What I've become, what I have done I never asked to be the one... I'm riding it out This storm that you brought in Bringing it down...be looking for it anymore When five becomes four? When you're all alone with the melody, Do you close your eyes and think of me? Will you still hear me singing anymore When five becomes four
...successfully used as bait, perhaps not quite as successfully as we had hoped and while everyone who helped is alive, it was not without cost that we succeeded if indeed we succeed at all. Shame upped the ante by breaking into the "Cove" during the daylight hours in order to leave me a box, which I did not bother to open. I have learned this lesson many times over; bad things come in pretty...
